Day 6

The cravings are becoming more and more intense! Aahhhhhhh! And I have to admit, I'm getting sicker of vegan butter by the second. Maybe there's a learning curve with this though, like gradually adjusting to the different taste....maybe....? I mean are we supposed to like this stuff? Do people ACTUALLY like this stuff? Or is it all just pretend...?

Things are really picking up with my own film production stuff. I have to say it's nice FINALLY being out of a slump. FINALLY (sheesh) I got catapulted into a general state of "fuck you" last april, do to certain events that deserve a huge "fuck you." (towards other parties, not to myself). And combine that with at the time working a job that made me miserable and the general state of HOLY SHIT I'M TURNING 25!! It can all certainly take a toll on a girl. But it seems with the new year that we are beyond that. Woot Woot!

(Poinsettia has since died. But let's not split hairs.)

Here's what's difficult though. So I'm making an effort to be less..let's say angry? *she says as she already told an anonymous person 'fuck you' already in this post* But honestly, to try and hear people out and address a situation before jumping on the offensive even when I feel I'm in the right. And the perfect situation/example of this has presented itself.

A certain friend of mine who I was super close to for four years, who did some pretty janky shit, has more or less come back *sort of* hat in hand. But the thing is, I'm not really sure I can forgive him. I mean, where's the fine line here between accepting an apology and letting someone walk all over you....Because in truth, I am still furious at him for what he did. BUT he was SUCH a good friend, I really do want him to be part of my life...which is why him abandoning me was so infuriating! BAH and GRUMBLE fucking GRUMBLE. what to do...what to do...hmmm

It seems like a lot of us youngsters are going through their adult metamorphosis right now and trying to make adjustments to their lifestyle as we leave our youth behind. And how weird is that? With working on About Abby again I am seeing some people I haven't seen in over a year, and some of these people I have known since the beginning of college. And it shocked me when I looked around at us and was like oh fuck, we're adults.....When did this happen?

I had coffee with one of them kids I speak of today, the ever awesome: Ross Mathy. Well I had soy chai latte with the ever awesome Rossy Mathy, and HOLY Shiza! That soy chai at starbucks was BOMB. You want your soy drinks? Starbucks got that stuff handled. Way better then vegan butter is vegan coffee drinks. There is the whole you know, selling your soul to a corporation, but look dude, I have a film to make and meetings to have. So sorry, I will not be driving to Chatsworth, Ross will appropriately meet me half way in sherman oaks to get things done. And get things done we did, I am PUMPED to tackle yet another project with the Ross Mathy. Woohoo!!

To keep the vibe of the film making going, after coffee I went to go see my friend Derek's short film screening. And funny story. HE, his girlfriend and his sister went vegan too! We all totally flipped out on each other, giving each other tips and just being generally stoked on our own personal sacrifice. It's spreading guys!! And if you really want a reason to go vegan, check out this cool article here.

It's been very cool engaging with people as I go through this experiment to get other peoples thoughts and opinions on the matter. I had one long conversation about this with some girl in a really cool hat at the party, while she stuffed her mouth with ranch dressing and cheesey mccheese meat. And it was weird, despite the fact that I'm getting cravings for dairy, watching someone eat it was pretty gross to me. It reminded me of when I started becoming a vegetarian and just wanted to eat meat less and less...oh no... it's starting.....

Off to get my dance on.

Day 6 DONE. Over & Out.